So, I'm currently at my grandparent's restaurant, completely bored out of my mind. Despite the fact, I have come to the realization that the two sides of my family with never reconcile (as the tension is many between my mother, step-father, and biological father) and hence, most likely will never be in the same room for more than a few passing minutes if either can help it. It would be more out of polite courtesy for them to stay.
I used some white out, to make a smiley on my big toe. It doesn't look too happy, and I don't think I would either if some idiot adolescent painted me either with some concentrated "erase-your-mistake" serum. Perhaps if it were a serum that erases mistakes that I made in my life, then I would be interested (i.e. ever wearing this stupid dress pants) .
However, it's not dress pants I would really waste my precious sermon on. It would be a mistake in a friendship to someone. I would have realized that I should have let it go when it was crashing, instead (and perhaps very stubbornly) I charged ahead and dragged it through. (I guess my tears put out the flames) I don't know, it's nothing I could say, other than it's somewhat like that Miley Cyrus's song "7 Things"; seven things I hate about you, seven things I love about you.
That's what I get for being so...me. Sometimes you really have to sit down, and realize that there are some things you can't fix and no matter how much you try...it doesn't work. So I say that I want to take it back, all my time and energy, but I don't. I don't regret knowing the person. I just regret our actions, as we've hurt each other, and though we may put of the facade of resilence well, there's alot of hurt underneath it. It takes a special person to see it, and accept you despite it.
Life sucks. Love sucks. My love goes to my family and friends of course. Someone the other day told me I was...I don't remember the word. But it meant I acknowledge there might be an entity such as God existing, but I'm not sure of it. Ha, funny. Person didn't know the first thing about me. I don't know anything about them. I am sad for them, and myself.
Wow, I feel very numb to things. I am saddened at this point in my life. I am disappointed with it really.
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